| a southern girl in yankee land |
[Aug. 23rd, 2008|06:23 pm] |
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| | Linkin Park - Hands Held High | ] |
So I said I was going to update that thing.....I suppose I should.
I'm in Connecticut now. It's all right I suppose. It beats Virginia (least the part of Virginia I was in). I do miss Charleston. And Florida. Hell, I even miss Macon. This moving around has been a lot harder than I thought it would be. I love seeing new places, but uprooting and having to leave what few friends I have is hard. Doesn't help Sam's gone more than he's around. I knew what I was getting into when I signed up for this but it doesn't make it suck any less.
On a lighter note....It's been kind of fun being in a different region of the country. Right after we got here, there was a "heat wave." It reached 90. For 4 whole days. Humidity was rather low so it was a dry heat. People are going on and on and on about the heat. I was laughing. Of course, I wasn't laughing when I discovered that our house had no central A/C. Apparently since it rarely gets *HOT* around here, a lot of houses don't have central air. Anyone who witnessed me trying to install the window air unit was probably laughing their ass off. Course you better believe these places have central heat. We even have a giant oil tank that we share with one of our neighbors just in case the power goes out.
Also...Dunkin Donuts are very common around here. In fact in my area of Connecticut, they outnumber Starbucks by a lot. Reason I bring this up...OK so they serve tea at these places. They require instructions on a poster with pictures on how to make sweet tea (and they have to add the word iced. They don't realize that sweet tea IMPLIES iced.) and what a proper serving of tea looks like. I had to try really hard not to laugh when I saw this. I still think I prefer Starbucks though. Dunkin Donuts is cheaper, but the people there just don't know how to make the stuff that's on their menu. While I'm on the subject of fast food.....they are seriously pushing the whole southern style chicken thing at the McD's around here. I think it's because they're betting on people not knowing what the real thing tastes like. And the commercials for it crack me up.
Then there's the Stop 'n Shop. It's one of those grocery-pharmacy-deli-(fill in the blank) chains that's prevalent up here. There is an area where you are instructed to put your buggys (shopping carts, if you will) so they're not just randomly in the parking lot. The sign above said area reads "Put your CARRIAGES here." This too was quite amusing.
I don't feel like making this an obscenely long entry. I'll post more later. |
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| some laughs |
[Jun. 5th, 2008|08:40 am] |
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| | Choirs of the Cathedral of St. John the Baptist- Media Vita | ] |
I <3 icanhascheezeburger.com |
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| random things in life |
[Jan. 19th, 2008|01:50 pm] |
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| | Red Hot Chili Peppers- She's Only 18 | ] |
I have a new car. 2002 Kia Sportage. It's a good little car. I call it the mighty flying doorstop.
The seat belt sensor in this car really works. I was sitting a stoplight the other day, and sneezed kinda hard. The seatbelt locked.
I had a "you're not in the south anymore" moment. As most of you know (and if you don't, you do now), I'm living in Virginia right now. It is not part of the south, no matter what they try to tell you.
I was driving down the road going home from a doctor appointment, and it was rather overcast. I didn't think it was that cold out. All of a sudden I see this stuff coming down out of the sky? I'm like "what is this shit? Is a truck like letting ash or something fly away everywhere?"
Then I realized I was driving in a snow flurry. yeah......welcome to Virginia, Stephanie.
In other news......I have a job interview next week! Applied for a job as one of the substitute teachers at Walsingham Academy over in Williamsburg. woot!
That is all. More later when I get the motivation to write it. |
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[Jan. 9th, 2008|11:09 pm] |
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I should start posting in this thing again. Nuff said.
Hi everyone! |
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[Jun. 9th, 2007|09:16 pm] |
I found this quite amusing.....but also I happen to identify w/ one of the characters (well except for the whole orc child thing, but you get the idea)
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[May. 24th, 2007|10:36 pm] |
For those of you attached in anyway to the Ft. Walton Beach area....
That woman got the max she could get....
I think she deserved every bit of her sentence.
Only seemed sorry because she got caught if you ask me.
No remorse.
Actually had the nerve to ask the judge for leniency just because it was her first offense??
It's one thing to admit your guild and truly be sorry for what you have done. To be truly sorry for taking the life of another. Being sorry because you got caught is not remorse. Doing everything in your power to avoid admitting guilt is not remorse.
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| appropriate lyrics |
[Apr. 23rd, 2007|09:53 pm] |
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| | Papa Roach- Be Free | ] |
Be Free
I woke up and I feel like shit.
I don't remember last night.
I'm getting sick of this.
I hit the bottle when I go off stage.
I got piss drunk stupid and I went in a rage!
I think I mighta got in a fight,
because my knuckles are bloody and I don't feel alright.
I hit the bottom and I don't even care.
You say I'm going to hell but I am already there!
Sick and tired of bein' sick and tired
I wanna be free!!
From this ball and chain....
Be free!
from this life of pain...
I wanna be free from you.
Now I'm full of guilt and shame.
I can't point a finger because there's no one to blame.
so I say I'll never do it again;
but when the sun goes down you are my only friend.
I think that I am starting to see
I have become everything I never wanted to be.
I'm really getting sick of myself,
'cause when I look into the mirror I see somebody else.
I wanna be free!!
From this ball and chain...
Be Free!
from this life of pain...
I wanna be free from you. |
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| Italy, here I come! |
[Mar. 13th, 2007|12:48 pm] |
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| | Hinder- Better than Me | ] |
ZOMG!
I get to go to Italy in October. Yeah, that's right. ITALIA.
It's odd how it came about. Goes to show what good it does to make a good impression and keep in contact with people. Remember how I was really involved w/ the St. Joseph's Church Choir while I was at Mercer (if you don't, just nod and keep reading)? Well they're planning a choir tour trip to Italy just like the cathedral one that I missed out on (yeah, the church I sing w/ now....I missed their trip). Nelda actually asked me if I wanted to go! After much contemplating and agonizing (we're relocating right before said trip and my cousin's wedding is during when I'd be gone), I decided to accept. WOOT! I'm going to Italy.
It's a whole thing. It's not just going to visit one place. We're visiting a whole bunch of places. We're singing in some of the most historic places in all of Christendom. DUDE, we get to sing at a Sunday mass AT THE VATICAN and possibly, if he's in town, sing during the english language portion of the pope's weekly audience.
*falls over and faints*
Here's the itinerary that I have.....(I took this from the packet I got from the tour people). I condensed/paraphrased it for you guys. Italics are my comments.
DAY 1- October 23rd (Tuesday)
Afternoon flight out of Atlanta airport. Overnight flight to Venice, Italy
DAY 2- October 24th (Wednesday)
Arrive in Venice. Tour manager will meet you at at airport. Travel to Padua. Visit Basilica of St. Anthony [we'll be spending a lot of time there because there's just soo much to see and experience...like the Chapel where his relics are]. Continue to Mestre, a suburb of Venice. Have dinner there. stay the night.
DAY 3- Oct. 25th (Thursday)
half-day in Venice. St. Mark's Square, Basilica, and so much more!! We sing for the 6:30pm mass at the Basilica of San Marco. Stay overnight in Mestre again.
DAY 4- Oct. 26th (Friday)
Eat breakfast in Mestre, drive south to Ravenna [ooh, lots of pretty mosaics!]. Informal singing at Church of San Vitale. Independent lunch and browsing in Ravenna. Drive through the Tuscan Hills to Florence. Dinner and hotel stay in Florence.
DAY 5- Oct. 27th (Saturday)
Breakfast. Trip to the Accademia. Piazza del Duomo. Cathedral de Santa Maria del Fiore. Baptistry of St. John. Franciscan Church of the Holy Cross [13th Century!]. ......then.....onward to Rome! the "Eternal City" ! Overnight stay in Rome.
DAY 6- Oct. 28 (Sunday)
[zomg, this will probably be one of the greatest days of my life....]
Breakfast at Hotel. Go to St. Peter's Basilica for the 10:30am mass where the St. Joseph's choir will be the principal choir [zomg!!!!!!!]. Attend noon papal blessing in St. Peter's Square. Those that want to can attempt to climb the steps to the top of St. Peter's for a most awesome view. Early dinner then off to Church of St. Ignatius. Rehearsal and formal [and public!] concert at St. Ignatius. Overnight stay in Rome.
DAY 7- Oct. 29 (Monday)
Vatican Museums. Pinacoteca. Sistine Chapel. tour rest of St. Peter's Basilica. Lunch. visit to Church of St. Peter in Chains. Roman Forum. Arch of Titus. Arch of Constantine. the Coliseum. Trevi Fountain [that'll be an exhausting day...but oh, what a day it will be]
DAY 8- Oct. 30 (Tuesday)
Breakfast in Rome, then onward to Assisi. really pretty drive there. Shrines of St. Francis. Basilica de Santa Maria degli Angeli. Porziuncula [where the first Franciscan community was centered. And where St. Clare received the habit from St. Francis]. Basilica of St. Clare. Celebrate afternoon mass at Basilica of St. Francis where St. Joseph choir and pilgrims sing together. Tour Basilica of St. Francis. Go back to Rome and stay the night.
DAY 9- Oct. 31 (Wednesday)
[and here's one of the other greatest days of my life...]
Breakfast. Then off to the heart of Christendom for an audience with Pope Benedict XVI. The St. Joseph choir will sing a selection for him when announced during the English language portion [*zomgfallsoverandies*]. Lunch. Visit to Basilica of St. Paul. Cathedral of St. John the Lateran. Basilica of St. Mary Major. Farewell dinner in Rome.
DAY 10- Nov. 1 (Thursday)
Breakfast at hotel. Transportation to Leonardo Da Vinci airport in Rome. Fly home.
Oh my goodness I'm so excited. I'm getting exhausted just thinking about all the stuff we'll get to do.
And.....this is the pilgrimage every Catholic (maybe every Christian, for that matter) dreams of!! And I get to do it!
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[Mar. 8th, 2007|10:31 am] |
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| | my desk | ] |
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| |  contemplative | ] |
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| | Hinder- Homecoming Queen | ] |
So I've discovered this interesting site.....Adoremus.org. I'd only heard of these people in reference to a really uber-orthodox hymnal they put out (and it's a really good one, actually).
I stumbled upon this article.....it was.......shall we say thought-provoking. Read it. Tell me what you think.
Comments? Thoughts? |
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[Nov. 5th, 2006|12:08 am] |
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| | my desk | ] |
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| | Yappy trying to have a conversation w/ Sam | ] |
Well this isn't the result I expected.....
| What American accent do you have? Your Result: The Midland "You have a Midland accent" is just another way of saying "you don't have an accent." You probably are from the Midland (Pennsylvania, southern Ohio, southern Indiana, southern Illinois, and Missouri) but then for all we know you could be from Florida or Charleston or one of those big southern cities like Atlanta or Dallas. You have a good voice for TV and radio. | | The West | | | The South | | | The Inland North | | | Boston | | | The Northeast | | | North Central | | | Philadelphia | | What American accent do you have?
Take More Quizzes |
So........those of you reading this........do I even have an accent? |
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| "soundtrack" out of boredom |
[Oct. 7th, 2006|11:34 pm] |
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| | the random selections i just listed | ] |
IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend your cool...
Opening Credits:
"Moscas en la casa" - Shakira
Waking Up:
"Macedonian Morning"- Riverdance soundtrack
First Day At School:
"B4U"- Naoki
Falling In Love:
"Tank!"- Cowboy Bebop (LMAO)
Fight Song:
"Vesuvius" - Frank Ticheli
Breaking Up:
"Everything I Do"- Rebecca St. James (completely NOT the right song, LOL)
Prom:
"18 Wheeler"- Pink
Life:
"Nothing Else Matters" - Metallica
Mental Breakdown:
"The Game"- Disturbed (oddly appropriate.....but slightly creepy)
Driving:
"Better Is One Day" - Rebecca St. James
Flashback:
"Canzona"- Peter Mennin (yeah, that's a truly random song choice....)
Getting Back Together:
"Find a Way to My Heart" - Phil Collins
Wedding:
"Laudate Dominum"- W.A. Mozart (interestingly enough, this song actually is played at some weddings....)
Birth of Child:
"Desert Rose" - Sting (oooh kay...)
Final Battle:
"Concertino" - C.M. von Weber (yes! I am going to go into battle and bludgeon you with my mighty clarinet!!!!)
Death Scene:
"Mobile" - Avril Lavigne
Funeral Song:
"Per l' Eternita" - E Nomine (gorgeous song....)
End Credits:
"It's My Life" - Bon Jovi
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[Sep. 21st, 2006|12:08 pm] |
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GOOD IDEA: wash stinky animals
BAD IDEA: giving fiesty cats a bath, even if they stink
VERY BAD IDEA: trying to get them in the shower while you're taking one
Yeah, I decided my cats needed a bath. I thought it might be convenient to wash them while I was already in the shower. Yeah that was bad. Aside from the fact that the noise freaked them out, they scratched me.....
So I got dressed an ran some bath water. Tried to bathe them one at a time. Yappy put a fight, but when I scruffed her, calmed down a bit. Didn't stop her from attaching herself to my forearm. Got her out and put Lucy in. Oh my dear God. That was a nightmare. Yappy cried, but Lucy had a cow. She cried and fought. Manage to grab a hold of my shoulder and crawl over my back.....TWICE. that was painful. And one of them, I'm not sure which, put two claw punctures in my arm and two scratches there as well.
I gave them a can of wet food as a peace offering after I dried them off.
Note to self......bathing cats is probably a bad idea. |
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| I really don't get it..... |
[Sep. 18th, 2006|12:47 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my desk at home | ] |
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| | contemplative | ] |
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| | Akalyte- Orthodox | ] |
OK, I have been keeping up with this whole snafu about the Pope and remarks he made about Islam during a speech at a university. This whole situation was confusing, so I decided to read the speech before I made anymore judgements on the matter than I already had....
Here's the link to the whole document. I've pasted a portion of it into my entry. the bold is my emphasis
I was reminded of all this recently, when I read the edition by Professor Theodore Khoury (Münster) of part of the dialogue carried on - perhaps in 1391 in the winter barracks near Ankara - by the erudite Byzantine emperor Manuel II Paleologus and an educated Persian on the subject of Christianity and Islam, and the truth of both. It was presumably the emperor himself who set down this dialogue, during the siege of Constantinople between 1394 and 1402; and this would explain why his arguments are given in greater detail than those of his Persian interlocutor. The dialogue ranges widely over the structures of faith contained in the Bible and in the Qur'an, and deals especially with the image of God and of man, while necessarily returning repeatedly to the relationship between - as they were called - three "Laws" or "rules of life": the Old Testament, the New Testament and the Qur'an. It is not my intention to discuss this question in the present lecture; here I would like to discuss only one point - itself rather marginal to the dialogue as a whole - which, in the context of the issue of "faith and reason", I found interesting and which can serve as the starting-point for my reflections on this issue.
In the seventh conversation (*4V8,>4H - controversy) edited by Professor Khoury, the emperor touches on the theme of the holy war. The emperor must have known that surah 2, 256 reads: "There is no compulsion in religion". According to the experts, this is one of the suras of the early period, when Mohammed was still powerless and under threat. But naturally the emperor also knew the instructions, developed later and recorded in the Qur'an, concerning holy war. Without descending to details, such as the difference in treatment accorded to those who have the "Book" and the "infidels", he addresses his interlocutor with a startling brusqueness on the central question about the relationship between religion and violence in general, saying: "Show me just what Mohammed brought that was new, and there you will find things only evil and inhuman, such as his command to spread by the sword the faith he preached". The emperor, after having expressed himself so forcefully, goes on to explain in detail the reasons why spreading the faith through violence is something unreasonable. Violence is incompatible with the nature of God and the nature of the soul. "God", he says, "is not pleased by blood - and not acting reasonably (F×< 8`(T) is contrary to God's nature. Faith is born of the soul, not the body. Whoever would lead someone to faith needs the ability to speak well and to reason properly, without violence and threats... To convince a reasonable soul, one does not need a strong arm, or weapons of any kind, or any other means of threatening a person with death...".
The decisive statement in this argument against violent conversion is this: not to act in accordance with reason is contrary to God's nature
OK, so first off..........the person who made the statment about Mohammed was not the Pope. It was an emperor from way back along time ago. His point was spreading faith through violence is unreasonable. That is the point the Pope tried to make. "one does not need...means of threatening a person with death..." for religious spread and conversion. Religion and violence need not be and should not be linked.
I agree wholeheartedly with this. Aside from the loss of innocent human lives......I have always gone by the fact that you can not honestly FORCE true faith. Violence might get you compliance, but not faith. And that's not what we want. It certainly can't be what God wants.
So given what I read and given my own convictions........I wonder how it is the Muslims could be offended. I have no clue. If things were taken out of context, I might could see it. OK, say they're still offended even if they honestly understood his point. That's their perogative. I think it's wrong, but I cannot take that from them.
Now I have seen two reactions to this. There are those Muslims that are offended and demanding an apology and an explanation. While I think the underlying reason is wrong, I see this as a reasonable response. It is not violent. It does not hurt those not involved. It gives the person a chance to explain something that maybe was missed. I *personally* don't think the Pope should have to apologize, but the fact that some ask for an apology is not an unreasonable request.
Then you have the stupid people. The people bombing churches (the ones getting bombed aren't even Catholic), burning likenesses of the pope, and Muslim clerics (check this out ) calling for the Pope's death. Other extremists are calling for the death of the West and the Pope. This is just wrong in so many ways.
What I find so interesting about this whole situation is that these extremists are making true the very statement that have taken offense to. They are insulted that Islam is associated and linked with violence. So what do they do? They do violent things. If this is not hypocrisy, I do not know what is.
Does anyone here reading this have thoughts on the matter? |
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| no I'm not dead |
[Jul. 29th, 2006|03:31 pm] |
I haven't dropped off the face of the planet either. This one is going to have to be short because I'm on a library computer. More on that fact later.
So I got married. Yay for me. I think everyone reading this probably knew that. We went on a honeymoon (a nice one, I might add), and then came back. Almost immediately we had to start getting ready for Charleston. In the mean time, my sister got married. On the beach that's on my in-laws' property. That was weird. But very cool.
So Sam and I got a house on-base We moved into it on July 10th. It's a three-bedroom house, which is really more than we need, but it's certainly very nice to have. It's close to the main gate and only about 3 miles (nice bike ride) from things like the NEX, commissary, library, and chapel. We knew when we left there was going to be a delay in our stuff getting there. The RDD (required date of delivery) was July 25th.
It is now July 29th and we have no stuff. It's not the fault of the base's personal property office. No, it's the civilian moving company. They're fucking around with us and I do not like it one bit. No one will give us a straight answer and they keep moving back the date that they're going to be able to get it to us. I did get some answers when I told them it could put me out of work for two weeks and they'd have to reimburse me two weeks' salary.....
So that's why it's been hard to get a hold of me. I do have a new cell phone number, but I apologize to those of you that have not received it yet. If I haven't called you already and you don't have my new number, I'm sorry. I'll try to get around to it. Leave me a message here if you like.
Anyway, gots to go now. bye |
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| I promise I haven't abandoned thee, oh LJ |
[May. 19th, 2006|12:23 pm] |
*ROFL*
Ok yeah, that subject line made me laugh, too.....
I have officially graduated from college. The wedding's in three weeks.
*blinks*
Damn....
the rollercoaster of life is getting ready to speed the hell up.
Yeah, and I hate lithium. Not only can it make you sick if you don't take right....it makes you gain weight! It's a salt! I'm running a mile and a half every day to work the weight off and get back in shape. So far it's working. And drinking a crap-ton of water.
Anyway, going to go find something constructive to do. I'm out........ |
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| interesting |
[Apr. 10th, 2006|10:28 pm] |
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| | Seven Sorrows- Tragic Ignorance | ] |
So yes, we lady singer-type peoples of Mercer are going to join some of the Wesleyan and Macon State ladies and the Macon Symphony Orchestra in the performance of the Mahler 3rd Symphony at the end of this month.
The women's chorus part is actually on the fifth movement. We finally looked at it today. It's beautiful. I also didn't realize what text we would be singing. It is also very pretty.
I have the text here, courtesy of Wikipedia
Original German
Es sungen drei Engel einen süßen Gesang,
mit Freuden es selig in dem Himmel klang.
Sie jauchzten frölich auch dabei:
daß Petrus sei von Sünden frei!
Und als der Herr Jesus zu Tische saß,
mit seinen zwölf Jüngern das Abendmahl aß,
da sprach der Herr Jesus: "Was stehst du denn heir?
Wenn ich dich anseh', so weinest du mir!"
"Und sollt' ich nicht weinen, du gütiger Gott?
Ich hab' übertreten die zehn Gebot!
Ich gehe und weine ja bitterlich!
Ach komm und erbarme dich über mich!"
"Hast du denn übertreten die zehen Gebot,
so fall auf die Knie und bete zu Gott!
Liebe nur Gott in all Zeit!
So wirst du erlangen die himmlische Freud'."
Die himmlische Freud' ist eine selige Stadt,
die himmlische Freud', die kein Ende mehr hat!
Die himmlische Freude war Petro bereit't,
durch Jesum und allen zur Seligkeit.
In English
Three angels sang a sweet song,
with blessed joy it rang in heaven.
They shouted too for joy
that Peter was free from sin!
And as Lord Jesus sat at the table
with his twelve disciples and ate the evening meal,
Lord Jesus said: "Why do you stand here?
When I look at you, you weep for me!"
"And should I not weep, kind God?
I have violated the ten commandments!
I wander and weep bitterly!
O come and take pity on me!"
"If you have violated the ten commandments,
then fall on your knees and pray to God!
Love only God for all time!
So will you gain heavenly joy."
The heavenly joy is a blessed city,
the heavenly joy that has no end!
The heavenly joy was granted to Peter
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[Mar. 16th, 2006|12:47 pm] |
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| |  emotionally drained | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Morten Lauridsen- O Magnum Mysterium | ] |
No, I have not fallen off the LJ planet....
Eh, I dunno why. Just didn't think some things were worth posting.
My recital's over and done with. I survived. Got the recording yesterday. Sounds pretty good to me.
Not failing anything that I know of...now I probably won't make Dean's list, but at this point I don't really care. I just need to get out and get on with m life.
Ok, now for the deep, reflective stuff.
I know many people are aware of the issues I have/still have concerning mental and emotional stability. It really all started last year with serious issues with anger and depression. The shit hit the fan back this past September when I did something really stupid. It landed me in the ER, it got me in trouble with Res Life, it got me in trouble with other people, got me put on more medication.....but most worst of all was that I hurt others in the process. Some very badly. The increase in medication led to more problems and I had another episode in October. Ok, so now everyone thinks I'm bipolar or nuts or just a horrible person. whatever.
I realized a while ago that this was not me. I cannot stress that enough. The things that have happened. They are not who I am. It's most certainly not what I want to become. Pretty much ever since I've started having issues, I have been praying to God for the strength to keep going. For the understanding for the people that have every right to be angry at me. For healing from whatever problems I've been having.
I have made a serious effort since October and November to rebuild my life after the horrible events of last semester. I can never forget what I did. I can't expect others to. What I hope people realize is that I have to live with my problems and what I did. I am trying to live like the person I thought I was before and the person I think I should be. I am trying so hard. I am learning to talk to people, especially a counselor, about what I deal with. I am making the hardest effort I ever have at learning healthy ways to cope with the issues I have. My desire to get better is strong enough that I am willing to take medication that makes me physically sick sometimes so that I can relearn what it feels like to be stable.
I hold no grudges against people. I try not to dwell on the wrongs that have been done. I'm not trying to pretend nothing happened. I am trying to make a situation that is good and healthy and not allowing for something like that to ever happen again.
What bothers me is......some people do not realize this. I know I have done wrong, or have been weird, but I would think that my effort to better myself and stabilize myself and to right anything I did wrong(whether by commission or omission) would be worth something. Apparently not, for some people. I'm not naming names. And a deep part of me almost feels like I deserve it...but that doesn't seem right.
Actually, it's the ignoring and the noncommunication that bothers me. I can live with personality clashes. I don't expect everyone to like me. I know that my personality clashes with others. If I know that, than I can live with that. If I'm being ignored or whatever because personalities simply don't match, I can deal with that.
If someone does not like me for something I have done, that's a little trickier. How am I to rectify the situation if I don't know what it is I have done? Treating me like a guilty person when I don't even know what I've been accused of. It's as if you would like me if my behavior were different. It's not fair to just write me off without even letting me know what I've done. Talk to me. More likely than not, I will do all I can to make things better. If it is something I cannot bring myself to do, I will let you know. That won't make you like me or talk to me, but at least then I know WHY.
And just to make this not such a dreary thing....I am angry at no one. I do not dislike anyone. For those of you that have been my friends and acquaintances, thank you. You people mean a lot. |
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[Feb. 3rd, 2006|04:38 pm] |
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Random editorial cartoons...
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